Today Keith and I took them to the beach in Vancouver, Lexi had been asking since she arrived, and was enthusiastic about exploring the tidal flats, while Nick and Uncle Keith engineered an amazing sand castle. Sadly the tide came and flooded it before I photographed it.
Lexi collected seashells and pretty stones in a bucket. We found a starfish which she christened Purple and helped it by putting it in a pool where it could stay moist.
Nick found a little crab, dont worry, it was no longer alive and he didn't fool me for a moment that it had nipped him! Don't forget, I've raised two boys of my own. I don't scare easily! I was pleased to see him enjoy the beach. He tends to be the quiet one, whereas his siter is a constant stream of natter!
We had our picnic surrounded by curious seagulls. This pretty female perched nearby. Nick pointed out that she was missing a foot. Then he turned and our eyes locked for a moment, both thinking the same thing I am sure. We all went quiet and just watched her for a minute. Our eyes saying to each other "It was as though Kaylas angel come to join us in feathered formation". She sat down on a nearby log while we ate. The sight of her made Lexi sad for a moment. We thought it was a shame this little bird couldnt have a prosthisis to help it like Kayla had!
We watched a huge blue heron stalking the waves close by. Such a graceful and delicate creature. Reminding me of the origami cranes.
I've found myself coming close to tears a couple of times since the children arrived. Just as I thought I was adjusting to Kayla's passing, these little ones arrival has freshened the pain. Lexi is so much like her sister to look at. We are remembering Kayla In so many little little ways. Lexi states so matter of factly little things like, at breakfast yesterday...
"Kayla would have loved these muffins".
We watched with great interest, a young girl out on the dock, dancing and twirling and singing to herself, in a world of her own. Unaware of our happy stares. Lexi asked how old I thought she was. Then said " She reminds me of my sister". Her simple, statements are uttered quite plainly. Just the facts. She is happy to see Kayla in the world, drawing on happy memories. Its very healthy. Some times, Lexi's words put a lump in my throat. But mostly she puts a smile on my face and warms my heart.