Photo edited by my daughter and neice. Shows a whole other side of me doesnt it?
I wish the sun would come out. All this cloud and rain is getting me gloomy. I wonder if i have a touch of SAD Seasonal Affective Disorder? Hmmm.... or maybe Im just wallowing in self pity and irritability. NO I am not PMSing thank you!.
One thing for sure, the house is getting a good work over. I deffinately know I woke up on the wrong side of the bed when I start cleaning. Ive swept and mopped every moppable surface in the place, with bleach. AHHH the clean smell perks me up a bit. I vacuumed the rugs. Finished the laundry. Polished the sinks, cleaned the bathrooms. Swept the front steps and pulled out the dead clematis and grasses from the front garden. Im pretty much out of my funk now, nothing like a good cleaning bee to shake off the gloomies.
Then I sat down with my tea for a quick peak at the computer. Sorry to have worried you guys with yesterdays post. Wasnt that a spectacular photo of a public toilet? I just had to use it in a post, and it certainly suited my mood.
Im not usually one to moan and whine on my blog. I figure people dont need to read about my silly problems. BUT since you asked.....
My sister and I had a bit of a quarrell. Nothing serious really. But the aftershocks of the tension and deafening silence between us really get to me. I told her "I wish you wouldnt swear so much. It makes you sound mean and nasty". I know it upset her but she hasnt said anything more about it. The longer we go on pretending nothing is wrong, the worse I feel.
She has been through so much and is one of the strongest people I know, but any critisism from me seems to really hit her hard. Now she has gone off to her surgeon appointment and I didnt even offer her a ride . Now I'm sitting here crying, thinking "Why am I such a bitch sometimes?"
I'm going to meet her outside the Drs and take her home. Apologize and tell her I love her. And If she wants to swear then Goddamn it she can fucking swear all she wants.