Saturday, March 15, 2008

Keep Believing

On Tuesday, Kayla was told that she wouldnt be allowed to participate in the Clinical trial/experimental drugs. She had put alot of hope in that. Now that option has been taken from her, banishing hopes and devastating us to hear she may have as little as five months. Yesterday Kayla wrote these amazing words of encouragement.This photo was taken last Saturday.
A message from Kayla St. Cyr
March 13, 2008 at 11:41 PM MDT

I know that sometimes it's hard to look for symbols of hope when the rest of the road seems darkened by sadness and gloom. But, don't lose total hope and faith. Miracles happen everyday, and perhaps God will grant me one. =) He sometimes sends us messages in the most peculiar ways, little reminders that he hasn't abadoned us. I see my miracle happening all around me, even as we speak. I'm not living on shattered faith, or if's, but's or maybe's....I'm karate chopping this cancer outta me, regardless of what the prognosis is..... If I am destined to leave, I'm not leaving without a lot of kicking, screaming and wailing. =) I do not believe in laying dormant, allowing something so cowardly as cancer to keep me from fulfilling my dreams, my avaricious goals. My strength is in my ability to never give up. Advice I was once given, and still live by. I challenge everyone here to never give up either. It's not over yet because I'm still here. I'm thankful for everyone who's been apart of my journey. A journey I'm steadily continuing because in my stubborn heart, I'm still championing this fight. I'm not pretending to forsee how fruitful the outcome will be, but I know I'll somehow come out stronger.
Your fighting champion, Kayla :)

14 comments:

Faye said...

Hi Susan, Kayla is a brave, determined young woman. It must be disappointing to be turned down for the drug treatment. I'm sending prayers this morning that she can keep fight this monster.
Hope you have a great weekend.
Hugs, Faye

Skunkfeathers said...

First, I don't understand the logic behind turning down Kayla for this treatment regimen. Having said that, reading Kayla's words of courage and fighting spirit is a great uplift, and I would bet on Kayla over the odds, anytime.

A *hug* to Kayla, and continuing best wishes from Colorado.

Herman Verbrugge said...

I am confused about the fact that Kayla has been turned down for the experimental treatment. Reading her words and understanding what is going on in her mind is very impressive. She will fight as long as she can and it must be very difficult for her parents and all family members to stay at the line, knowing no one can do anything for her. I wish Kayla all the mental strength she need in the months ahead and also her parents and her family. And you know Susan, all your blogfriends will support you, Keith and the children in the coming months.

Smalltown RN said...

I read everyone of your posts here....oh how my heartaches for all of you...she is a very brave and beautiful young lady...her words and insight are beyond her years...so wonderfully said.

When you wrote about driving home and how you felt, the dark cloud the people outside going about their daily business totally oblivious to the anguish you are feeling....I could relate...when my youngest daughter was 8 she was diagnosed with cancer...I can remember that day like it was yesterday....Please know there are some of us out here who do care and I for one don't even know you...but know that I care..and I will say a prayer that whatever the outcome Kayla and the rest of the family find strength and encouragement to continue whatever path is to be taken....consider yourselves hugged...

Cowboy Joe said...

It's difficult to read that she was turned down, though I am sure they have their reasons. But reading her fighting words still gives me hope that one way or another Kayla will be a winner. At the same time, it brought tears to my eyes, because such a beautiful spirit could be taken from us. God bless you Kayla and keep you safe. Big hugs to all.

Outhouse Capital of Canada said...

What an amazing person Kayla is, she just refuses to be knocked down. She truly is an inspiration to everyone and it seems like she feels she has to be the strong one in this horror show.

If we all had the fith of this girl the world would be a better place, my prayers are with her and the whole family and, who knows, miracles do happen and maybe one will happen for Kayla.mom

Michael Manning said...

Kayla: Your spirit is a gift. Keep it up. (((HUGS))) from Me to You!:D

Bobbie said...

I have such admiration for Kayla's courage. She is a real inspiration, and I'm hoping they will find an alternative treatment.

Keep up the fight, Kayla! Miracles do happen! (((hugs)))

pennyhalston@hotmail.com said...

I don't know what to say. Kayla's words are beautiful and, even as a stranger, she has touched my life. My prayers will continue for her and the rest of your family. Hugs to all of you.

Dina said...

TO Kayla, you are a champion!!!! a big hug from me (((hug))) xx

Deb said...

Hi Susan,

It's difficult to hear that Kayla hasn't qualified for the experimental treatment, but she has the gift of living each moment with every fibre of her being.

Kayla, you are an amazing young woman. Such wisdom and courage in a beautiful package. You are an inspiration to me, and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Deb - Oliver BC

Walker said...

I have been catching up and I don;t know what to say.
Kayla is one of the bravest people i h ave come to knopw and her spirit come second to none other.

I don;t understand what they won't let her into the clinical trials, that angers a bit, ok a lot.

I will be keeping her in my thoughts and hoping for a victory.

BarbaraMG said...

Kayla ;

You have wisdom way beyond your years. I will keep praying for you but I think you are wiser and in a better place then most people walking around out there today.

Blessing and God Speed.

Barbara

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